One Geek

What good am I if I say foolish things
And I laugh in the face of what sorrow brings
And I just turn my back while you silently die,
What good am I?

From Bob Dylan’s What Good Am I?

How many people do you need to kill to be free.
I am tired of people killing in the name of freedom.

How does the murder of civilians help anyone be free.

Where is our Ghandi, or Martin Luther King or our Nelson Mandela??

The world needs strong voices of peace and heroes to rally behind. What good are hospitals when people are being slaughtered just for being in the wrong place?

We need that great dead man to wake up and come again.

Kya apt mooj-eh chumna karta chahi-eh?

Does anyone think there is any redeming features to jealousy?

I look around and I can only see it causing damage. I have seen many relationships ruined through its influence, literature is filled with examples of its destructive power. And it’s not just romantic jealousy either there is much damage also caused by what I guess would be envy. I wonder what it would take to live a life without any hint or jealousy. I think the main thing is probably just to be secure in yourself and your identity, not sure though. Need to go and read the Road Less Travelled again.

Although I am always a bit worried about the bit where God says his “for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God” in Exodus 20. I assume that would extend to a married couple and their being some right to be jealous if one partner cheats on them. Not sure about that.

For various reasons the past week or so has been rather difficult. I hope good comes from it.
I am really lucky to have a global support network like I have.
I had a really good talk to a friend in Ireland today as well as a nice chat to some people back home.

I pondered today in the back of an auto-rickshaw whilst reading The Road Less Travelled how many people may have read that book in the back of an auto. I don’t think it would be that high…

Today marked the start of shirts off summer for me.

I went to Freshwater beach with Tom, Howie, Hannah and Jo French. It was great fun. I also stayed in the water the longest for like the first time ever at the beach. I really enjoyed being in the water. Though the highlight was definately jumping with Hannah in the water. Such fun.

I want to go to the beach lots this summer. I’m a fan.

Why do Australian people think the new terror laws are a good idea?

It seems so stupid to me. Why do we want our government to have all these new extra powers? Powers that you can bet will stay with us for decades. Until one day we get a really bad government who labels people who oppose it as terrorist. Suddenly all the members of say the Greens could be rounded up overnight and held for two weeks. No one would have to be told where they were.

I am working with an oxygen cylinder and an oxygen sensor today. It was fun for the first 5 minutes. What am I going to do now.

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Sam really is a top notch chap. I believe that one can have no firmer foundation for a relationship then Dosa.

I really like wine. It’s so nice.. I also like talking maybe cause I’m egotistical, if I can shut myself up I also enjoy listening. Communication is so fun.

I love connecting with people. Pub was great tonight.

Enter non-linerity section

It’s odd to think these days that if I really tried/cared I could realistically have a girlfriend. After many years of being fixated on the idea of having a girlfriend it’s nice to know. Also nicer to know that I can choose not to take that path at this stage. Which has been my decision.

Does that make sense?

It’s not that I am being egotistical (which I may be.. bonus points for using the word twice in one post?) it’s just that I have changed. My self perception always lags over reality. It’s not that I haven’t had good self-esteam lately just interesting to think about these things. Personal growth is a good thing.

Life’s a journey they say. Sometimes physical movement is the best way to move in.

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Welcome to the blogverse Sam.

I have found it so humbling the way people have been interested in my work for next year and how they can help. The people in my life rock.

I’d just like to announce that I have been accepted as a Fieldworker for TEAR Australia.

In Febuary of 2006 I plan to undertake my first assignment as a IT Project Manager on a new 500 bed teaching and training hospital in North East India. It will be a 12-18 month assignment.

It is a big job for me to undertake. But I am sure I’ll get it done with a bit of help from my friends new and old, and a lot from above.

The exciting thing is that I’ll be blogging from a place where you need a special permit to be. The state of Nagaland where I’ll be based requires you to have a permit to visit. So I get extra stamps in my passport. YAY for stamps.

I have been a bit monosyllabic on my blog of late. I’m in a bit of a nothing place at the moment. Life keeps going I’ve lost a bit of my passion of late. Too much work and uni work to do. Yet I feel unmotivated, perhaps even overwhelmed. I know that only way through these kinds of problems is to just start. Doing one task at a time. Still difficult to do in practice.

Went to Melbourne for work last Saturday to work on a train. Single day business trips aren’t as much fun as you may think.. Though the flying bit doesn’t suck.

I ended up getting to church on Sunday feeling pretty low and tired. I had been tempted the whole day not to go. Then I had someone come up to me and say something not particularly helpful. I decided to leave. Had a nice walk to Chatswood. Just over 2 hours not bad. Considering whereis.com gives you 3hours and half on foot to get there.

I went to Hornsby and got some Indian food. I ate in the park with my hands. I had a veg currie, pompadooms and naan. I also got a takeaway mango lassi in a round chineese takeaway container. I love the sensualness of eating with my bare hands. A good pick me up.

Had uni on Monday. Had lunch with Adam near his work. The Mid-City centre food court always has seats. Dosa was fun on Monday Night. Except I really miss Sam. His sick and needs to get better.

There was no train running to the airport tonight. I had to catch a cab to central that cost $20. I managed to just make an express train to Hornsby where my Dad kindly gave me a lift home. Mannaged to write a lot down on the plane which was good. Helped me process.

South Africa is now firmly on the places that I want to vist in the next few years. So tired.. Winding down is hard.. but I am dead tired. So I think it’s time to get in bed.