One Geek

I only have 3 days left in India. It feels a bit strange. My time is going very quickly now. I am looking forward to leaving but I have had a really good experience in India. People keep saying it feels like I haven’t been away six months, but for me it feels a very long time.

The time itself has gone quickly I guess but home still feels like another world. I have gotten so used to my Indian reality. In India I have had two places that have been homes for me. I have grown to love many things in India, and deal with many other things.

I have made so many friends, from so many countries. I doubt that I will see many of them again. It’s odd you become so close so quickly but once you lose the common place there is little left. Not all my friendships have been like that. But some are. It’s okay though. Sometimes you need if not single serving friends, single place friends.

I have been enjoying having a friend from Austria this week living where I am. We’ve had some fun times together. Without friends the world is a lonely place. I have found that out first hand. I have had some very lonely times in India. Travelling alone, living alone and eating alone is not easy.

I have spent a lot of money communicating with friends and family back home. I don’t regret it. I want to keep up with peoples lives plus I have really missed everyone back home. So much has happened back home. It sounds like there has been some positive stuff happening. I look forward to meeting Martin and seeing him in Emily together.

I have had some good God experiences on this trip. I don’t doubt that he is alive and working in India. Yet I am still a bit of a cynic. I’ve drawn closer and further away. It’s hard moving in and out of Christian Camp attmospheres. I think I am probably more like I was 8 months ago spiritually but with a bit more confidence in God.

I think it will change when I get back I am sure I’ll change when I get back. I am really in the waiting rooms of life at the momment. I go back to work and Uni. Then after a year I have to decide what to do with my life at the momment. I can definately see there is a place for me in the developing world. I have to see whether there is a place back in Sydney for me.

Or will home never be truly home again. I don’t know how I’ll feel living and working back home. I guess that’s all just reverse culture shock.

Anyway I have a year before I have to make any long term decisions. That’s a long time for now. I guess I just have to trust in the Lord.

This stage of the journey is almost over.

But is a journey just distance travelled? No I don’t think so. You are not the same person at the end as when you started.
(Borrowed and modified shamelesly from Buffy Season Three Graduation Part 2)

P.S Some things don’t change.