Apprehension
So within the next 24 odd hours I should find out if the area I am meant to be working in this year is going to descend back into civil war after a ceasefire that has been running since 1997. According to what I have read it should actually all be decided by about now but I have to wait for it to hit the press.
It’s hard to tell what’s going to happen, it makes little logical sense for the NSCN(I-M) to break the ceasefire. It will send their state backward years developmentally and result in wide spread suffering.
If the ceasefire is broken then my trip to India becomes postponed indefinitely. This would in someways be a relief as my job over there is going to be very hard. It would also be shattering though for me personally not to go. I have found that I have been delaying investing too heavily emotionally until this ceasefire is actually extended. I don’t know if this is a wise thing or not. Maybe it’s not trusting in God.
Anyway I am ending up feeling very mixed emotionally. Regardless of my own mixed emotions, I hope and pray for the Naga peoples sake that this ceasefire does continue.