Soul
Went to Soul Survivor last night. Wasn’t going to go but decided at the last minute to go. God really moved me last night. The talk was on suffering. I really felt a strong calling to development. My heart of stone was broken again. I wept about what I had seen in India.
I don’t know what is in my future but I know God is good. I know we have to pour oitment on the wounds of the suffering. A person who was praying over me said God was telling him the words Strengh and Courage.
Holy Spirit stuff is still a bit wierd. I spend half the time trying to rationalise it away. Then I think maybe I just need to have faith.
Everything is not better now but it is not meant to be. I feel that God is going to give me the strength to carry on. That he will shape me in his image.