I still want to save the world though
Although I have all these negative thoughts I still want to save the world. I don’t really think I can make any real impact on the big issues or even the small ones. It’s not about the result. It’s just about trying to improve the world. I’d like to say it’s all about God. I think deep down it is. But at the momment I am a fair distance away. Somewhere in India something snapped and it hasn’t been quite the same since.
It’s hard moving from an enviroment where you need to be dependent on God to one where you can be totally self reliant. It’s a curse. I am fiercly independant and need to learn how to depend. But at the momment I am not there yet.
I still believe the same stuff, and have a greater set of examples of God comming through for me. Just my spiritual tank is kind of empty at the momment. Hope I find a petrol station soon.
you don’t think you can make an impact on the big issues?
It’s odd, I’m feeling the same at the moment, maybe it’s the tsunami. In terms of making an impact on the world I guess it there is no recipie for success. it just depends on your attitude to success and what you choose to do.
Sounds like a very wanky comment now that I read it…
humph!
I don’t think I am the saviour of the world. Don’t really think that’s my place. Hence I can’t make a lasting impact on the big issues. I might be able to ease the suffering of a few people. That’s enough for me.