Church Tonight
April 25th, 2004
Wasn’t really in the whole worship vibe tonight. I couldn’t really get there tonight.
I think I am a bit upset with God at the moment. The eternal(well almost) question of suffering, and how to relate to God when you see people you love suffering. And when you too are also suffering. I want to praise God, but I can’t quite get there at the momment. Maybe tommorow I’ll be able to.
I wish I could just hate. It’s so easy and so pure. Much easier and less complicated then trying to love people who hurt you.
Other thought I am having is -
Why can I deal much better with people hurting me, then people hurting people I love?