One Geek

Was alright tonight. Kind of fun. Not sure if it will be challenging though. I guess I’ll see.

I was chatting to people on MSN tonight and I got disconnected. Now no matter what I do(including boot into windows with latest messenger client) I can not reconnect to MSN. So I hope you have a fun conversation with out me.

I have decided it is time to let my blog community in on my plans for later this year. It’s been a bit hard writting some posts without referencing them. . . . . . . That should get me off blogfeed.

What am I planing doing?
Going to INDIA.
When am I planing on going?
July.
How Long for?
6 months.
Doing What?
Working for a hospital. Probably Training staff in the ancient are of Systems Administration and doing some documention and supporting software development.

I am not going to go into much more detail on my blog. All this is in the planing stages so I don’t know if it’s going to happen. I just have to leave it to God.

So now you know and I can mention it in future on my blog without having to explain it. Everyone wins.

Got a home group to go to for Turramarra Uniting Church(TUC). It’s in Hornsby which is nice, but I don’t know if I am going to keep going to the church or the home group. You see the problem for me is that I am not sure if I belong at TUC. I’ve been going on and off for about 9 months. Helped run a kids group gone to a few social events but never really hit it off. I have a few friends but no real closeness. I find it hard to talk to people too, the group dynamics don’t seem to work. The services are okay but I don’t really think they challenge me.

All this wouldn’t be a problem if I hadn’t gone to St Stephen’s Belrose last week. You see I’d been once before but that was for Tom preaching. I am pretty biased when it comes to Tom preaching and so therefore it didn’t supprise me I thought it was good. But when I went again I was suddenly confronted with how much better Belrose was. I am not just talking preaching though the preaching is top notch, I am talking about fellowship. When I have gone to Belrose I have had people to talk to. Macca’s has been great fun, and I at least think I fit in more socially. The only real problem with Belrose is the song slides.

But TUC has excellent song slides. And there are people I have formed relationships with. I don’t know if I am quite ready to leave those people yet.

So what to do. What to do. I think I have come up with a simple plan. I will attend each church at least once each month and see what I think. See whether God is leading me one way or the other. I might be going overseas for six months in July. When I come back I’ll make my final decision.

Does that sound fair?
Does anyone else have other suggestions as to how to do a church evaluation?
Do you think I should tell people at TUC that I am thinking of trying another church?

Why is it that my concious always lags so far behind the rest of me?

I have been changing a lot over the past few weeks. Not in many outward ways. It’s more internal then that. I think that I am finally trusting God. I am on the verge of taking some pretty big risks but I am not trying to plan my way out of the risks. This is odd for me. I usually try and mitigate or at least have a management plan for all my risks. I am not sure where I am going to end up. I am on the verge of undertaking some possibly life changing experience but I am trusting God in this. That doesn’t mean I don’t get scared and don’t worry. It just means I go through with it and pray that God makes it all work out.

Well it looks like my blogs first birthday has been a bit of an anti-climax. Oh well. At least I’ve got my blog working on my own server. Seems to be working nicely thus far.

Looks like I am back on the hole. A silly little “a” was sending me back in time to the 70’s.

Howie just sms’d me to say Counting Crows was cancelled. I remembered April fools when he claimed U2 were coming down under, so I thought I would check and not just believe him. Turns out he was right. What a bummer.

So now my concert on Sat Night isn’t on. What am I going to do.

The individual archives are back up. There was a problem with the individual template and file type. All fixed now.

One Geek has just moved in to onegeek.net/blog. So sit back and relax and let the party begin. It’s time to celebrate one year of my blog. All day there will be reflective posts about this year.

Somehow this blog has made it through a year. With 578 posts and 193 comments.
It’s been a great year of blogging.

What were your favorite One Geek momments?

There will be a prize for the winning entry. So dig up the archives and find your favorite One Geek moment. Was it a witty one liner(not many of them)? a quote? a cry of desperation? a religous comment? or just something really geeky?

Enteries close 10/5/2004.

poo 0
shit 2
tear 5
crap 8
jesus 8
Buffy 14
Relationship 14
jo 16
train 17
dog 20
man 26
linux 26
God 28
computers 30
chris 30
love 54
howie 60
tom 86

Why do weekends have to end. Here I am back at Uni waiting for a lecture. It’s so frightfully dull.

Jum was talking about wishing she wasn’t a girl.
Sometimes I have a different feeling. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t me. Sometimes I get sick of my faults. Sometimes I wish I was better looking. Sometimes I wish I talked more clearly. Sometimes I wish people got me. Sometimes I wish I was funier. Sometimes I wish I was less intellegent. Sometimes I wish I was more intellegent. Sometimes I wish I could stay happy. Sometimes I wish many a thing.

My problem with all this is that I can’t change these things. I can’t change myself or how others percive me. And if I could I don’t know if I would.

You see if I wasn’t me then who would be?
By losing my weakness would I also loose my strength?
I know that there is some purpose to my life. Some reason why I am me. Some good to be done. And somewhere in all this is God who loves me. Who sent his son to die. I guess Jesus too wished he wasn’t himself. That he didn’t have to carry that cross, but he did.

So what am I to do. I think it’s time to carry my cross once more. I don’t know where I’m going or where I’ve been. But someone does and that’s all that matters.