One Geek

Is almost gone. Hopefully 2004 will be a good year.

What a nice shaped line.

Today was a good day. Went to the beach, dinner and a movie. Got a bit burnt though.

I have avoided posting when feeling down or having any real issues. That lead to me rarely posting. Look how much more I have to stay when I stop censoring myself.

By the way it’s not all bad, I do have some really great days. And I am not depressed just a bit sad. It happens. I really loved the whole LOTR experience. It was good fun having people visiting my house too. I don’t have people over very often, and it was fun to play host. I had good fun playing frisbie the other day, I didn’t think I would but I did.

I wanted the ocean to cover over me
I wanna sink slowly without getting wet
Maybe someday, I won’t be so lonely
And I’ll walk on water every chance I get
Time and Time Again Counting Crows

And thats the way it is going to stay. Unless somehow I overcome the curse of past loves.

I can’t live with or without you.
I don’t know what to do or where to go.

I feel so lost sometimes. Tonight I was at the Blue Gum and for a while no one was listening to me. It’s very hard when people don’t listen to you. It’s worse when someone picks up a comment you’ve been making and trying to have heard and gets laughter of it. It’s great when jokes from a night years ago keep on being circulated.

I love my friends, sometimes more then others. I have seen a lot of them over the past few weeks. I really love the times when were together in small groups. I also like the new people who I have meet lately.

Sometimes though the performances are more then I can take. When the actors take the stage you better take cover, and better not try to compete.

In the end though I can’t live without my friends. So I should take it on the chin and delete this post. But just tonight in honour of blogs of old I shall leave it as a testament to my feelings late one night.

I have just registered for linux.conf.au 2004. I shall be going to Adeliade on the 13th of January at 9.35 and ariving back in Sydney on 18th of January at 21.05

It’s been a few days now. Enough time for me to gain perspective on the film and think over it. I think that Return Of The King was a great film, however some decisions made by Peter Jackson have prevented me from calling it a fantastic film. It gets a 9.5 out of 10 from me. The sets and scenery where beautiful, the acting good and the camera work top notch. I pretty much share Tom’s views on the film. I was disaponted with the ending until the scene at the harbour. From there the film went on to finish strongly.

I think I have to wait though for the extended version of the film to make up my mind up on how the Lord Of The Rings ended.

Well today is Christmas Day. And it’s a good day. A bit hot for my liking but it’s been a good day.

I went to Waitara Gospel Chapel this morning with Ma and Pa. That was interesting. They had an Islander guy speek and he had his kids sing us songs. The Gospel Church has no minister so they just seem to get lots of guest speakers. Its an interesting experience.

I got U2 “go home” from Mum and Dad for christmas and unlike Tom I have it in my house already and have watched some of it. Tonight I might go to Jem’s as she is having some Christmass type thingy.

I like to give presents in a way which undercuts the significance/insignificance of the gift being given. I don’t often give presents with pomp, or ceremony. Maybe it’s an insecurity thing, maybe it’s just more fun to suprise. I do prefer suprising so maybe that’s why I do it, I like giving presents early too which can add to the suprise as well.

I don’t really feel like posting but I never do. I feel like I should post something non-trivial. Life at the moment isn’t great. But I had a good day today, got to spend some time with just Tom which was good, and some time with Tom and Ryan which was also good. I brought some Christmass presents today, I like buying dvd players. Maybe I should talk about Christmass.

I never have really got Christmass and the way we celebrate it. I mean yeah Jesus was born into this world and I think it’s important to recognise it and even celebrate that event. But so often we forget the flip side which appears at Easter, that this little child was born to suffer a horrible death on a cross to free humans from their sin. It seems to me like Christmass should be more of a bittersweet time In terms of it’s celebration. I think it’s fair easier to remember a Jesus’s birth then his death. I don’t know how you celebrate birth and death at the same time but then again celebrating the birth of someone who has died (all be it been raised again) is wierd in its self. So what do we do, give presents, sing songs and spend time with family.

I really like giving presents, it’s just kind of nice. I think though that buying presents out of obligation sucks and that people get far too stressed about it. For me it’s a way I can express my apriciation of people and I also kind of like people being all appricative of me to I guess. I am not ending up buying that many Christmass presents this year. Simply because I don’t see that many people on a regular enough basis to be gift exchanging with them. Of course it helps when one of your sisters no longer wishes to see your family so you don’t need to buy them a present.

I am so over carrols that’s all I am going to say about them.

Family, I guess it’s good to meet up with families. It’s kind of nice to some extended family every so often. I think though the problem with Christmass is their is often an expectation that everyone has a family they can spend time with. It’s also a big reminder of any problems in family or anyone who has died.
Apart from that though it’s a good thing.

Today is a great day. Linux 2.6.0 has been released.
It is a day for geeks to celebrate. I have already celebrated by downloading, building and installing the Linux 2.6.0.
I am so excited I might have to go and see a film.

Real Time Operating Systems 92 (HD)
Advanced Digital Systems 85 (HD)
Engineering Economics and Finance 86 (HD)
Contempory Europe (Germany) 67(C)
Engineering Practice Preview 2 Pass (Pass/Fail subject)

It’s been a while since my last post. I haven’t been in a blogging mode. But now I am..
What’s been happening with me well…

Friday Night went to Turramurra Poeople beach party had a pretty cruddy time. Didn’t find many people to talk to for any length of time. Minister talked to me for a while, that was better then I expected. Still night was dull. The depressed guy their kept on sitting on the steps away from people I think in an attempt to get people to come to him. (Man how much was I not fun a few years ago.) Anyway people kept going up to him and talking to him. I had seen him at his work and was going to talk to him..but he bit my head off. He thought he may of known what I was going to say.. But as I didn’t know what I was going to say then I am not sure how he could know. Took a little walk for a while a bit after that, that was fun. I like looking at the sea. When talking to someone I refered to the church as your church.. I don’t really think it’s my church yet..

Anyway after that I walked home from Turramurra. Along the way I gave Tom a call he invited me to Macca’s. I went. It was good fun. I find it far easier talking to Tom, Howie, Helen and Jo then any of the people at Turra. I think Howie and Jo make a neat couple too. They have worked out a good acceptable PA policy as well.

Saturday Night
Went to House of Chan. That was really fun. I enjoyed it. There was even a lazzy susan. Got to see Michael who I hadn’t seen in ages which was nice.

Sunday Day
Family christmass. I have graduate to the adult gift catogery now. (Calender and a desk/world clock thingy)
Sunday Night
Hang out with Howie went and saw Love Actually. Actually a very good film. Depressed me a bit. I get kind of tired of being alone.

Monday Night
Blue Gum and Macca’s. Great fun. Got to see Tom’s sister Jo which was nice and Tinku. Had good fun. The same crew as friday night/sat morn went to maccas.

At work I have been using a Windows NT4.0 machine and using internet explorer. It had all been working fine for me the past couple of weeks(Aside from the odd application crash)

This morning however IE was being an utter dog to me. So I downloaded by ftp Mozilla Firebird. I didn’t realise how much I missed tabbed browsing. It is the bomb.
Later on I had a Blue Screen Of Death(BSOD) on my computer. I had forgotten how annoying it was when your system crashes.

I think that Linux is the desktop for me.